This month has been pretty crazy. I have been trying to pack because my boyfriend and I are moving into our apartment July 5th. He has also been away for the past 3 weeks in Quantico, Virginia. He’s my rock when it comes to depression, so needless to say it has been rough. I lived without him before I met him. I can do it. I just really prefer not to. Going to the grocery store for instance, it makes me anxious and there’s too many people there. If I’m with him, I’m not as anxious. Also, my retail job is becoming way too much. I’m not sure if I just am depressed and that’s why I don’t want to work or I just hate it.
Now I consider this my first actual blog post. I started this blog at an odd and rough time in my life. My boyfriend and I have been together for a year. He has been the rock and calming of all of my storms, but he left for six weeks to follow his dreams. He’ll be back on July 2nd and we move into our FIRST apartment together on the 5th, but it is really hard to stay grounded without my rock.
I have always been afraid of becoming co-dependent and relying too much on him for my mental health. This month will hopefully prove that I won’t break without him. Don’t get me wrong. Getting support from others is amazing, but relying on them to keep you together is harmful for you and them as well.
So far it has been good. I’m staying very busy and spending time with my friends. I noticed the more time I spend with them, the quicker the time goes by. I miss him a lot and hope the rest of these twenty-nine days go by just as quick.
Let’s start off by saying, my name is Kobie. I’m a 22 year old from Oklahoma. I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 12. This has been a fun 10 years. I am writing this to give whatever helpful anything I can to whoever wants to follow along.
I don’t want this to be some poor pitiful me blog, where I talk about how sad I am all the time. I may talk about other things and I want to keep this as light as this blog can be for a “Girl with depression” blog. I will probably spend a lot of time talking about my plants and my boyfriend, so I hope y’all like it.
There’s no magical cure for depression. Yea, trust me, I know. Managing is the next best thing. I would like to think that I do that pretty well. I cannot judge my progress based on others. You might be wondering “How long did it take to manage”. The reason I made the last comment is because it did take me 10 years. For you it might take a few months or never fully manage. Which I by all means don’t think I fully manage.
It’s cool though, because that’s why I started this blog. I’m here for you. Always feel free to talk to me. My email is posted.