Montreal: Day 2

Hey guys! Day 2 is coming to a close. We didn’t get out and about til about 12, but have been non stop since. We went to Little Italy and had lunch. Afterwards, we went to thee farmer’s market and they had the biggest pumpkin I’ve ever seen!

It took us forever to find the entrance to the Mont Royal park! We wanted to see it so bad, but it took like an hour of hopping on different metros. It was so worth it though. I assume this is exactly how Fall is supposed to look like. We had a great view over the city. We didn’t have enough time to go to the top, but it still rocked.

When we got pack to our area(where the apartment is), we went to the police headquarters. My brother is in law enforcement and he likes to get different patches from different city’s police. The guy was super nice and handed his patches right over.

GIFT SHOPPING TIME. Oh the money I spent… Oh well, when will I ever be back here? Totally worth it.

We called it an early evening to pack. This trip has been so much fun. I’m super glad I was able to do this. Now it is time for the pictures!

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Montreal: Day 1

We have arrived. So we got in last night right before midnight. So I’m counting today as day 1. We had breakfast at this really great place called Eggspectation. I totally recommend going there. It’s in Old Montreal.

Then we went to this beautiful building called Notre-Dame Basilica. It is an old church(pics below) that was built in the 1800’s. I’m not a religious person, but I could spend all day admiring that thing.

After we came back to our Airbnb(which we got from staysbypaige, look her up it’s an awesome little apartment) and changed, because damn it is cold here compared to our Oklahoma 80 degree weather!

At 2, we had our tattoo appointment. We went to Artease. It was a mainly lady shop and our tattoo artist @kesselrun was so fun and cool. I got a ghost and moon and Andrea got an airplane.

When we left the shop, we hopped on the Metro and took to Underground City. It is this 5 story shopping mall. We shopped alil and I bought a coat(I didn’t realize how cold it was going to be).

We got back  to the apartment about 7 and decided to stay in to get away from the  cold. We order pizza and here I am, eating and typing. So, enjoy the photos!

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Andrea’s airplane, us out front of the church

My Tattoo

My tattoo

Rain view from apartment

Pumpkin dude at the tattoo shop!

Many views of Notre-dame

View down the street

Morning view

Cozy blanket in our airbnb

Things I’m loving: October

I’m going to start making a post at the end of every month saying what I am obsessed with this month. 

Music: Side by Side – Ariana Grande  (I sing this obnoxiously loud all the time.)

Food: Buffalo pretzel chips by Snack Factory. Yum!

Shows: obviously Luke Cage. It just came out so I had to watch it. Super awesome. You’d think they have too much marvel stuff out but it worked. 

Reading: You are a Badass by Jen Sincero. Hilarious for starters. Super motivating which I don’t have at all. I was surprised. If you think you’re having a life crisis or don’t know what to do with yourself. Check it out!

Crocheting: That huge blanket I posted.

I also am working on a project. I’m keeping it on the DL for now, but will be posting about it within the next week! Keep an eye out. 

This is taking forever!

10 balls of yarn later and I’m over half way done with this blanket! Dang. Right? I have 6 balls left. This is a birthday present for my dad. Unfortunately, it will become a Christmas present. Oops! I’ll post the finished project.

What I’ve been up to

I go back to work for my first full week back tomorrow. I’m anxious just because 12 hour shifts are hard. I leave for Montreal in like 5 days and I’m mostly packed, so I’m ahead. My friend and I are getting tattoos while we’re there! I’ll post pictures of them!

Btw, I dyed my hair orange.

I also planted baby carrots and their starting to sprout! Now the main thing is to be able to keep them alive until I repot them!

I’m also crocheting this huge blanket. Pictures and updates to come!

Hospitalization

It has been awhile since my last blog post. I can only blame a small amount of why on circumstance. I was hospitalized from Oct 1st off and on til Oct. 14th. I was there because of my depression. My medication quit working on me. Surprise. Surprise. It sucks, but it happens occasionally. My stay was really hard. I was very homesick the whole time. Being home in my bed was the only thing I wanted, but I knew it would not improve anything. The doctor changed my medications and thankfully I feel much better.

I read this book while I was in called “You Are A Badass” by Jen Sincero. I totally recommend it to anyone struggling with depression or anything relating to not knowing what to do with their life or just not being happy with it. It was such a good read. It finally helped me realize that I have the tools to better my life.

I have always thought that Depression was going to rule my life, however with the right help and medication I am positive that I can changed who I am and make this life better for myself. Again check the damn book out. It’s some good stuff.

Hi blog it’s been a little.

So, Depression is kicking my butt right now. I’m always tired, which is getting really annoying. 90% of our stuff is unpacked. We just need to fix up the spare room and put a bed in it and we’ll be good to go.

On the plus, I got hired by the local hospital and I start Monday. I’m going to be a registration clerk. It’s my first “big girl” job, like I actually get benefits and what not. I am super nervous. My anxiety feels like it’s going to kick my butt along with all the heartburn caused by the anxiety.

Another side note, I started working out this week and it’s been difficult, but I pushed through for a few days. I’m done for this week. So, we’ll see if I actually stick to it next week.

Moving!

It has been awhile since I have made a post. My boyfriend got back from OCS about a week ago and we have moved in to our apartment! I am beyond stressed out. My anxiety has been giving me heartburn. I still have so much left to unpack and I feel bad that I have more stuff than my boyfriend. Oops.

Having Major Depression with anxiety qualifies me to have a Service dog. My boyfriend and I have been contemplating getting a puppy and training it. Right now with apartment fees and just moving in, we don’t have enough money to have one. It will be very hard work, but it will be totally worth it to have a loving dog that can help me with certain things I can’t control. I have been looking into a lot of different options on things. It is probably going to be pretty expensive. It seems worth it though.

 

Update on Life

This month has been pretty crazy. I have been trying to pack because my boyfriend and I are moving into our apartment July 5th. He has also been away for the past 3 weeks in Quantico, Virginia. He’s my rock when it comes to depression, so needless to say it has been rough. I lived without him before I met him. I can do it. I just really prefer not to. Going to the grocery store for instance, it makes me anxious and there’s too many people there. If I’m with him, I’m not as anxious.  Also, my retail job is becoming way too much. I’m not sure if I just am depressed and that’s why I don’t want to work or I just hate it.

First Blog Post!

Now I consider this my first actual blog post. I started this blog at an odd and rough time in my life. My boyfriend and I have been together for a year. He has been the rock and calming of all of my storms, but he left for six weeks to follow his dreams. He’ll be back on July 2nd and we move into our FIRST apartment together on the 5th, but it is really hard to stay grounded without my rock.

I have always been afraid of becoming co-dependent and relying too much on him for my mental health. This month will hopefully prove that I won’t break without him. Don’t get me wrong. Getting support from others is amazing, but relying on them to keep you together is harmful for you and them as well.

So far it has been good. I’m staying very busy and spending time with my friends. I noticed the more time I spend with them, the quicker the time goes by. I miss him a lot and hope the rest of these twenty-nine days go by just as quick.